I am (unsurprisingly) totally unmotivated. Again!
This time it is not only the fact that I am (still) sitting by the computer with an arduous translation task mockingly grinning back at me. No. It's more than that.
I feel like what is written all over the pages are blatant lies, or at the very least extremely liberate reformulations of the truth. Not only do I lack the motivation to translate, my mind is practically screaming at me not to feed the world these lies...
It's this dilemma that currently has my insides twisted into a disgusting knot of anxiety and general discomfort. I just want to scream, throw my mouse into a wall, and storm out into the fresh air!
Sunday 5 February 2017
Thursday 2 February 2017
How to Reinvigorate a Tired Head?
You sit in an uncomfortable chair, at a too high desk, for hours and hours at an end, staring bleary-eyed at a dimly illuminated computer screen. Sounds familiar?
This, currently, is my every day (and probably many others', too), and let me tell you, I am not cut out for office work. If anything this experience has thought me that.
Staring at a computer screen all day long, while trying my best to translate complicated text from Japanese into English has caused my brain to overload. It's mush, I tell you. Furthermore, this in combination with the lack of fresh air and natural light seems to have crushed my spirit. It's been pounded to dust, just like pepper corns in a mortar.
It's funny how I can game for endless hours at a time, or write stories all night, without experiencing the same symptoms I do when I work. Then again, gaming and writing is something I do for entertainment, work, on the other hand, is not. I really think I'm one of those persons who work best in short burst, especially when a computer is involved (as I don't find physical work to be as grating). My efficiency today, while not a solid 0, is not much higher either (the same trend as previous days).
So how do I reinvigorate my poor dead head? Well, I secretly blog during working hours, off course. Well, if I had a proper job and proper pay I might be slightly less rebellious, perhaps even orderly, but as this is not the case I have no hard feelings for my behaviour. There is also no love lost between me and my boss, and I suppose this fuels my anarchistic streak.
I still work, just not as efficiently (10 hour + workdays tend to cause such problems).
It's amazing, though, what a simple few minutes of recreational writing can do to your mood. Mine, at the very least. It's the nectar my brain has been craving all day. I also write secret stories, and draw secret self-portraits. Oh, and secretly play some utterly senseless mobile games. Also, any excuse to go outdoors (man, fresh air is underappreciated!), or to the kitchen, is valid. I think I've never been this happy to have dinner-duty....
Only a few more hours till it no longer will be unacceptable if I start making dinner prep, so maybe some secret youtubeing (mixed in with some proper work, of course) and I can head into the kitchen. Thai chicken and bean chocolate-chip biccies on the menu today :)
This, currently, is my every day (and probably many others', too), and let me tell you, I am not cut out for office work. If anything this experience has thought me that.
Staring at a computer screen all day long, while trying my best to translate complicated text from Japanese into English has caused my brain to overload. It's mush, I tell you. Furthermore, this in combination with the lack of fresh air and natural light seems to have crushed my spirit. It's been pounded to dust, just like pepper corns in a mortar.
It's funny how I can game for endless hours at a time, or write stories all night, without experiencing the same symptoms I do when I work. Then again, gaming and writing is something I do for entertainment, work, on the other hand, is not. I really think I'm one of those persons who work best in short burst, especially when a computer is involved (as I don't find physical work to be as grating). My efficiency today, while not a solid 0, is not much higher either (the same trend as previous days).
So how do I reinvigorate my poor dead head? Well, I secretly blog during working hours, off course. Well, if I had a proper job and proper pay I might be slightly less rebellious, perhaps even orderly, but as this is not the case I have no hard feelings for my behaviour. There is also no love lost between me and my boss, and I suppose this fuels my anarchistic streak.
I still work, just not as efficiently (10 hour + workdays tend to cause such problems).
It's amazing, though, what a simple few minutes of recreational writing can do to your mood. Mine, at the very least. It's the nectar my brain has been craving all day. I also write secret stories, and draw secret self-portraits. Oh, and secretly play some utterly senseless mobile games. Also, any excuse to go outdoors (man, fresh air is underappreciated!), or to the kitchen, is valid. I think I've never been this happy to have dinner-duty....
Only a few more hours till it no longer will be unacceptable if I start making dinner prep, so maybe some secret youtubeing (mixed in with some proper work, of course) and I can head into the kitchen. Thai chicken and bean chocolate-chip biccies on the menu today :)
secret self-portrait 1.2
secret self-portrait 2.2
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